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I probably should start posting again. Since it's dead now. Probably people won't see this. I would feel more at ease also, writing down a journal or diary. Perhaps, this would help.
I don't even know what's happening. It's just I kept thinking of some things and sometimes it's just painful. I know that some parts the it's definitely the satan's doing, trying to grab hold of me. I realise that I'm faltering, I'm feeling sudden jet of pain. Like continous pain. Not physical. Physocologial, emotional perhaps.
Sometimes, I'm just confused. I think i'm just so stupid, reacting to each and every small things. I get stuck at my own inabilites, my own limitations, I see where I am, that's why i feel so painful, I see so many things around me and I am so helpless, that's why I'm scarred.
Lord, please help me, may I always turn to you for comfort, for refuge. May I always focus on the death of Jesus and forgot my the worldly matters, they are worth nothing in Your eyes. Yet Lord, I know You see me and thus, please guide my life.
In Jesus name, amen!
1:32 AM
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Reallity & Dreams
Eh. I know my blog is dead.
But I wanna post.
Just posting.
For no whatsoever reason.
O Level sucks.
Tired.
Theory.
Heavy.
Intense.
1 more week left!
Persevere!
P.s. I can no longer find the motivation to study-.-
10:54 PM
Friday, November 6, 2009
Reallity & Dreams
Yeah I know. It's been a long time since I've posted.
That's why I'm posting now.
This is a waste of time - to a certain extend. I just want to update my blog. So that it would not really be dead. Crap.
Today is officially the first day of my prelims. I did fine... i hope.
I'm wondering what to post and what to write. Funny for me to have a great length of words in most of my posts and now, I am desperately struggling for words. It's not like I've nothing to say, more like I feel nothing much.
Well, for my post, I would probably end it now.
Cheers ppl.
Have a good day :)
4:11 PM
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Reallity & Dreams
Omg, Singapore just confirmed its 10th and 11th case of swine flu.
Nearing the global pandemic, the world is really at a stage of risk!
This isn't something that anyone can rejoice for. Yeah, definitely not. It's like, when will the flu really rises and escalates into a huge problem? Talk about a safe place to live in, now, where
is safe?
We are just like some pathetic people running away from this dreadful disease. Okay, maybe it's not
that bad, as in we would be able to solve the problem won't we?
That's just a bits of news though, painful or difficult, we still have to live through anything won't we?
Anyway, now's the June Holiday, I don't know what to do with it. Maybe spend my time studying( yeah, I wish to) or just waste it away in some meaningless stuffs. I can't get myself to study at all. What a joke!
Well, now is like 12.00 already, I wanna get on my bed and just enjoy some dreams, so then, cya!
11:44 PM
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Reallity & Dreams
Exam Ended.
Delighted, was it the word?
I know no words are strong enough to describe it.
No words. That's the idea. I'm just over the moon today that mere words are not enough to show the extreme emotions in me.
After all, exams are over!
Or on the other hand, it is just a new start, awaiting another major exam of life. Life. When compared to that, O level is probably nothing, nothing at all. Not that I comprehend much about what life actually is about.
Anyway, all the subjects are really horrid for me. I doubt the results of the exams would bring much happiness to anyone at all.
Today, was a movie. Angels and demons. Yeah, that's the movie today. Totally enjoyed it. Dan brown is a creative writer, to be able complete so many well written classics. He sure is a aethist. Just look at the way he critises others religion. The way he phrases the red clothes leader makes them look very pitiful, or even stubborn. I wonder how much different this varies from real life.
Anyway, I truthfully enjoyed today. Especially the movie. Definitely a job well done. Haven't seen such a nice production for quite some time. The last show I watched, "The legend of Chun Li" just isn't in one of my top list. Probably one of the worse show I've ever seen. Yan Xu and Valerian said that the book is much better compared to the movie. Maybe I would check it out some day, maybe not.
Anyway, Zhong Ming's birthday today. Since I'm blogging already, might as well wish, "Happy Birthday Zhong Ming!" Going to his house tomorrow to have some birthday party stuffs.
Seriously, dont feel like touching the textbook for weeks. Guess I dont have much of a choice when lesson starts proper. So just enjoy while I could.
So then, I've finish posting.
9:06 PM
Friday, May 15, 2009
Reallity & Dreams
Internet back seh.
Yesterday was toturing.
I have not been using computer for like a week and the internet must be down at thursday! The incompetent people-in-charge of mio cannot even arrange more people to come to my house to install a new modem when their damn system got some stupid problem.
But oh well, it's okay, considering the fact that I used quite a lot of computer today and enjoyed my episodes of "D-gray man". It is definitely one of the best anime I had ever watch.
definitely.Today was a rather fufilling day. I went to Mac in the morning with people like YoongAunn,ZhongMing,Russell and Kaiyang to have morning breakfast. It wasnt a easy thing as I've to wake up at like 6.20. Imagine that? But I wont complain, others have it worse.
Went to a hospital for the elderlys or whatever it is called. I think that is really very fulfilling. Guiltly, I would be too lazy to visit them on normal times and would not even bother about them, just caring and my own life. It will just be me and myself. I believe these people did not have a easy time and will not be having much enjoyable times ahead. Interacted with a few and I realised how lonely they were. Some were trying to keep up a false front in front of us though. But they were lonely, and that is really very sad. I admire their courage and strength to continue on their lifes so well with such things in their life. Yeah, this is so much about the visit.
There is still the workshop that really is extremely beneficial and painful. The time passing through was agonising. As in, I would really want to spend my time having fun at home and all these. But, I would agree that the speaker spoke really well and is very talented!
Finally, I reached home at 7.30. This sucks.
Going to read some comics I borrowed from the woodlands library just now. hehe.
10:15 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Reallity & Dreams
Okay. I'm finally going to update. Or something.
Hmm, I have been baptised last easter Sunday in church and that makes me a official member of the church. This is a memorable thing for me to celebrate or something... Anyway, I've gotten lots of present for my baptism. Whao, I'm so glad that I've baptised. Lol.
Last Saturday, I went to see Ang Sheng off to army with my other friends. It must not be easy in army as everyone says so. I can't look foward to that kinda horrible thing which is like 2 or 3 years from now for me. Not that I should think of it now.
Anyway, some photos.
Ang Sheng gonna be botak alr.
A meal in Orchard
Anyway, this is about it. I have fun last week.
School is however usual (sucky). Dont have much to say about it but complains so I think I should just forgo it. Hmm... Have fun everyone!
Innocence Activate!
(Oh, that was a phrase from a anime)
To think about it, I'm rather innocent too.
6:21 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009
Reallity & Dreams
